Back online

I have been away from Blogger, fulfilling my role as a student & professional, and allowing this method of communication to fade. But last week I had a shocking realization that for the first time in my life, I no longer have an outlet to debrief about life...and I'm the type that needs an outlet.

For almost 5 years I wrote newsletters to one hundred people about what was happening in my life. And while people didn't always have the time to read them, I was always shocked at how many people really knew what was going on. Their interest was not so much in me, but in the work I did. And I have to say that it was quite encouraging to have people, often that I didn't know very well, praying for me. Praying that God would equip me and work through me to fulfill His purposes.

Now, four months into my new identity as an Executive Director and graduate student, I realize that there is not even one person who knows all of what's going on in my life...and no one, except my mom, who is praying for me. My life has become compartmentalized with a handful of people in each category: work, school, small group, new church, new house, random friends. My regular "pillars" of people who used to know it all are no longer available for various reasons....and all of a sudden, last Sunday, this suffocating realization hit me.

So, while I realize that I am quite possible the only person who actually reads this blog (yes, it's my own), I will turn back to blogging and this electronic version of myself. I'll work on reintegrating my virtual life and hope that it spills out into the real world.