Sunday, October 12, 2008

How to Land Your Dream Job

Even though the experts will tell you otherwise, the following steps are guaranteed to land you the job of your dreams. Simply follow these steps and you won't fail:

  1. Do a random internet search in your field of practice
  2. Begin cold-calling hundreds of agencies
  3. Wait a month and a half
  4. Receive a call that you apparently missed an interview you didn't know you had & sound responsible enough to convince them to do an emergency interview on the Sunday afternoon of a 3-day weekend.
  5. Run into the wall on your way walking out of the interview
  6. Receive a call in 48 hours with a job offer

**Ok, I guess this just goes to show you that you pretty much have very little control over getting what you want and that it's probably more important to spend your time getting to know the One who gives good gifts.

I'm back

Well, the obvious gap in blog posts is actually directly related to two life circumstances:

1) I started grad school & its zapping all of my writing skills, and
2) I started a new job about a month ago & LOVE it & let it take up my thoughts

School update - I love my classes, but don't like all the work. I wish that reading my textbooks was just for my own personal benefit instead of for midterms and papers. But, grad school rocks because I literally leave my classes on Tuesday nights and put into practice what I've learned on Wednesday morning. I'm not kidding. And I continue to feel VERY confident in my God because He directed me to pursue a Masters in Social Work and I feel like He is drawing out more qualities and passions within me than I knew I had. And though I've never really doubted it, all of this confirms that He really does have a good & purposeful plan for my life.

Job update - Even though I was apparently doing macro-level social work in Costa Rica, I wasn't trained in it & didn't know my Social Work practice theories. This made me feel very confused about pursing a social work job upon returning to the States. I actually was telling people that I didn't want to work in foster care, adoptions, etc....with no one really knowing what social workers do anyway, one person asked me if I'd rather just work with pets than people.
But, then, in my very first MSW class, I learned that there is a term for what I love to do...it's called, Macro-level Social Work...and apparently, there are some people just cut out for this. I'm one of them. And I God dropped a job in my lap that is doing this exact type of work right here in San Juan Capistrano.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

My Jungle

The other day, for no apparent reason, I missed the jungle so badly that I couldn't shake it. Normally, when I miss Puerto Viejo, I miss the people, friends, experiences, and the laid-back lifestyle. But most recently, I just honestly miss jungle living.

The jungle is FULL of life. Everywhere you turn, you see life happening....from the "walking palm" who's roots show that it's moved closer to the sunlight to the bugs and lizards that swallow you up if you stand in one place for too long. One big jungle tree contains up to 8 different Bromeliads, vines & hanging roots...and that doesn't even take into consideration the amount of animals that thrive off of it.

I miss the stifling heat & humidity of the jungle.....the musty smells and the jungle sounds.

I miss seeing all of my jungle animals. It became so commonplace to see sloths, monkeys, toucans, poison dart frogs, tree frogs, iguanas, etc. on my way to work. But I never took any of it for granted.

So often, my experiences in Costa Rica were lonely. Yes, I had friends & teammates... but being single & having lived alone so often, most of what I did, I did alone. But somehow, I never felt lonely in the jungle. I don't know whether it was because the evidence of God was so clear or His Spirit so close, but the jungle is not a lonely place.

I'm still looking for places in So. Cal that contain this much life....

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Through the Desert

Sitting with girls from my small group, we discussed life & love over falafels. I so deeply appreciate their friendship as we can take a conversation from jokes about dating to deeper life issues. One of the girls was sharing about her week & a seminar she attended by one of my favorite Bible professors at APU. She shared a concept he taught through that I've been mulling over all morning...

In dissecting the new testament passage of Jesus' time of temptation in the dessert, he pointed out that Jesus was "led by the Spirit into the desert." (Matt. 4:1). The Holy Spirit purposefully took Jesus to a place of death and famine. I've heard very little teaching on the fact that God intended this time of difficulty. What I have heard on the subject is what God intends to teach us through these challenges, that He will draw us closer to Himself, that He will never give us more than we can handle. And while all of this may be true, I learned a new approach to the story that I like better.

Jesus couldn't have been any "closer" to God. In fact, He was God in human flesh. For us, it must be the same... being so filled with the Holy Spirit, actually requires times of death and famine.

God intends it.

I've been in "the desert" in life and its horrible. Certain aspects of life reeked of death and my soul felt dry. In no way did I consider this as God's way of assuring me I was fulfilling His great purposes, that I was on the right path. The desert may actually speak of a deep connection & closeness to God. And I find this deeply comforting.

Monday, August 11, 2008

Transition Update

I haven't given recent updates to my transition to life in the States. But this month, I've arrived at a new point in my transition....the job search. And I have an interview today. So, here are my thoughts:

I'm having a difficult time trusting God lately. In a certain way, I feel like living in Costa Rica forced me to trust God because there was so much of life that I could not control. But here in the States, I have SO many options & decisions to make. The big decisions that lay ahead of me (where to work & live) are very much in my realm of control to make decisions about. Maybe it's not that I don't trust God...maybe it's just that I recognize my need to practice the discipline of listening to God.

In many ways, I am thankful for entering the field of social work because it's a very similar field to missions & helping people of great need. I don't think I could ever go back to an office job or a career that didn't involve helping people. Even still, I find myself pursuing the more extreme job opportunities with the VERY poor or needy & then looking to rent an apartment & live among them. It's like I have a weird addiction to extreme ministry, which I attribute in part to my experiences in CR. Either that, or its simply following the philosophy of ministry that Jesus set...serving incarnationally among the poor, the outcasts & the marginalized. Once a missionary, always a missionary.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Dream job?

Well, I've discovered exactly what I want to d0 for work while I'm in grad school. Drawing upon the 2 strongest desires that God has placed in my heart, it would offer unparalleled training in community development and member care. The only problem is that it doesn't pay much & I'm attending a private graduate school. But I'm not easily dissuaded & have figured out a plan.

I have to find a job & I have to move. What if I found a job that assists in community service - like family resource centers, wrap-around programs, etc. And what if this job was near a ccda? I could work in the field of community development and live among the people. The good news is that this isn't a ludicrous or far-fetched possibility. And it may actually be what God has in mind. I want to do this in Costa Mesa/Santa Ana.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

There is so much of life yet to be lived

I want to travel & know the entire world. I do.

During a hike last night, I had a conversation with a man who has visited 4 of modern wonders of the world, not to mention all of the "non-wonders" he talked about. I want these experiences.

A friend sent me this video today. I laughed my head off & at the same time felt such a strong sense of jealousy.....

I can't figure out how to post the video, so click here to view it.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Christian Community Development Association

When most people ask what my plans are, my words typically fumble out in a mess of what sort of government social work I don't want to do followed by the types of community social work that I'd love to do. I'm far from eloquent in my explanation because I did not have the words to explain that which my heart yearns to do....that which I did in Puerto Viejo and that which I desire to do in the States. In a nutshell, I want to work in the area of community development and finally, there are words to describe my desire (who knew it was in a movement that's existed since the 1960's?).

Check out the philosophy of the Christian Community Development Association here.

Why APU grads ROCK

Azusa Pacific University, a.k.a. APU, produces some world-class people. Case in point...

Bryan Clay - This summer's Olympic decathlon athlete expected to set new world records. (He taught me to speak pidgin when I was in college.) Check out his life on film here.

Chrissy Brooks - After graduating from APU, Chrissy moved down to Venezuela where she spent 3 years serving children. Through a series of events following her return to the States, Chrissy began to pour her life out to an underprivileged community in Costa Mesa, CA and eventually became the executive director of MIKA.

Russ Cline - Russ & his family have been running a youth training center in Ecuador since 1994 (that's almost 15 years ago). They now train leaders across the entire world.

Friday, July 4, 2008

Where am I?

During my last couple of days in Puerto Viejo, I realized that I had completely forgotten that I live in the States. I even bought some ice cream to bring to a friend's house and rode half-way back to Cocles before remembering that I don't have a home with a freezer in which to store it. It felt so natural to be back in PV, that I had to remind myself that I actually have another life in the States.

How is it that I can feel so comfortable and happy in two completely different places? Living in Puerto Viejo consisted of dirty feet, bug bites, mold, unpaved roads, critters, jungle rains, and my bicycle. And while all of these might sound like inconveniences (& they were at times), I genuinely enjoyed living so simply and so close to God's creation. On the completely opposite end of the spectrum, I enjoy my life in the States as well. Here I drive a car, go running with my iPod, don't fear rape, live near my family, and can buy cute clothes that won't bleach or mold or stain. As much as I love living simply, I also love all of the conveniences that modern life holds. It's like living two completely separate lives....yet they are both my life. No wonder I don't always feel "at home" wherever it is that I'm living.

About a year ago, when I was first preparing to move back to the States, I began to journal about my fears of living here. Among those fears was that I would become too "soft" and needy with all that is available and that it would somehow make it harder for me to leave again when the time comes (because I plan to continue living oversees once I finish my studies). And while I still strive to be careful about this, I realize more than ever that 1) I am simply a pilgrim on this earth (Heb. 11:13); and 2) God made me to be able to live in a variety of circumstances...I am wired a certain way that enables me to do this.

So, as much as I want to feel at home wherever I live...be it here in the States, or abroad, Lord, help me "set my heart on this pilgrimage."

Below is a photo I took while visiting Panama City back in 2006. These two indigenous women are dressed in their native garb. Behind them are the high-rise buildings of Panama city. Such a contrast of worlds seems to currently depict my life.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Walking with God

Over the years, I have come to view life as a journey of knowing God, or "walking with God." My years and relationships in Puerto Viejo have deepened this understanding as I have seen God's compassion on a people who want to know Him, yet live in a difficult place. This place is severely oppressed with various addictions, all forms of abuse, crime and all manner of evil. There are many people who genuinely want to know God and yet struggle with these various evils.

Having re-connected with some old friends, they have shared their successes & struggles in this walk with God...and I am moved by God's compassion and grace. In the book of Romans, the apostle Paul reminds us that "while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us." Even when we had no inclination of turning towards God, He pursued us. If God is this gracious in the times we didn't care for Him, I can only imagine His compassion in our attempts and loving & walking with Him...even in the midst of our failures.

People ask me about my "testimony" or my story of knowing God and I cannot help but describe it as a journey, a step-by-step process of growing to know Him more & therefore falling more deeply in love with Him. I know of many people, some of them here in PV, who have had "radical conversions", or moments of enlightenment when they choose to leave behind the dark life they've lived and turn towards God. And yet, we are not perfected in a single moment. The Bible says to "work out your salvation with fear & trembling," not that salvation is something we acquire, but it does take a lifetime of change and of continuing to choose God.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Just Photos

I have no insights today, I just want to post photos of why I love this place...





Friday, June 20, 2008

The Dark Side

For many, Puerto Viejo is extremely wonderful and horrible at the same time. It is a place full of paradoxes that include a beautiful beach paradise and a poverty that cannot be contained; a people who preach peace and love & yet abandon or sexually abuse their own children. Since I did not start this blog until I returned from living in Puerto Viejo, I've decided to begin explaining a bit about this life as I return to both wonderful and horrible situations. Today I will share about the dark side of life here.

Situation #1: The Rapist
Since the day I returned, I have been warned by many close friends to be smart and safe in all that I do. The Rapist...I call him "the" rapist because he is the most prominent and for reasons unknown to me cannot be kept in jail. The Rapist has been released from prison and within one month has already claimed 5 victims. He has been an ongoing problem even when I was living here. WHY he cannot be arrested and jailed for life is beyond me.

Situation #2: Street Thieves
I gave a ride to an 11-year-old boy from the Skate Park the other day (sitting on my crossbar on my bike...dodging potholes and cars). When he got off, his demeanor changed to a very serious tone as he warned me about the thieves ravaging the main road. He is a tough kid from the streets & speaks from firsthand knowledge & fear as he told me that they use knives in the day time and guns at night. None of this is new to me, such had been my life here, but I am sad to hear that nothing has changed.

Situation #3: Corrupt Police
The day I arrived, there was revealed a huge police scandal in our area. There are many gangs in Limon (the nearest city about an hour away) and many drug lords throughout the Caribbean coast. Last week, however, it was discovered that some of the police are working with these gangs when they attempted to kill a few street kids (drug vendors). One escaped and told the story and now all of the police are in question....sort of good, definately scary.

Situation #4: Mother Pimps
Sexuality is too much a regular part of life in Puerto Viejo. While the country is trying to stop the sex trafficking of minors, it is still quite prevalent due to the mindset of the local people. And while this is by no means indicative of the entire town, it definately describes a raw side of life here. There is a family I know quite well from various interactions throughout the years. Although they have attended church in the past, the mother's tough life has taken over her mindset and infiltrated her daughters' as well. Her oldest is now 12 years old, and according to her mother, ready to bear children. She has raised her to act older than her classmates and other children her age, telling her that she is more mature and that her body is more mature. Since she was a small child, her mother would introduce her to people and comment on how old and mature she looks. As far as I know, the mother is not selling her daughter. But in my opinion, to raise her in such a climate as this isn't far from prostitution. The mother's life was not quite so different than this.

**And please, put all of your minds at rest about my safety while I am here. I am smart & am making good decisions about where I go and who I go with. God has been faithful.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

In a Nutshell


They say that a picture is worth a thousand words and I can't think of a better way to describe various aspects of life in Puerto Viejo than to post these two pictures.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Confused Rastas

I'm sitting here in an internet cafe in Puerto Viejo, my first afternoon back in my "home town" and for the past 1/2 hour I've been watching a Rastafarian priest yelling at his "wife" (meaning, the mother of at least two of his children). He's fully decked out in the full headdress; a long, multi-colored robe, and lots of ritual necklaces...meaning, that he's a serious Rasta. And yet, I see a world of contrast.

To begin, his girlfriend is Caucasian, which goes against the "roots" of this religion. And although she is also wearing priestly clothing, it does not cover up her nationality. Also, the rage and anger in which he is addressing her does not mirror what Rasta preaches...not to mention that he seems a bit jittery & is probably on cocaine. It is enough of a scene that two policemen walking by have stopped to assess the situation before moving on (they don't actually want to get involved if they don't have to).

And the oddity of this situation is absolutely normal for Puerto Viejo. This place is like the twilight zone.

I spent almost 2 hours this morning in conversation with a good friend about Yoga. He is attempting to become Master and therefore spends his time teaching others about the truths of Yoga. And although the conversation took some pretty weird twists and turns, I'm thankful that all of my time in Puerto Viejo has made me quite comfortable in these types of conversations. I have found that people who are quite willing to talk about spirituality often allow for me to express my beliefs as a Christian. I was comfortable sharing what scripture says on certain topics that are similar to what yoga preaches; and yet, was just as comfortable sharing the stark differences between what scripture says and what yoga teaches. My friend took it all in with a respect and a contemplative mood. And although I do not expect him to revoke his beliefs in Yoga and "Mamita" any time soon, I do believe that scripture is powerful and sharper than any two-edged sword and that it cuts between the soul & the marrow of a man (Hebrews 12:4).

This is everyday life in Puerto Viejo. And although it is weird beyond belief, I have grown to appreciate it and maybe even miss it. :)

Friday, June 6, 2008

Nothing to Say

No really, I have nothing to say. I just hated logging onto my blog and seeing the word "Suffer" so big & bold and the first thing you notice. :)

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Called to Suffer

The theme of suffering the Bible has always struck a chord deep inside of me. There are numerous passages throughout the Old Testament & the New that have challenged me at various phases of my life and drawn me into a deeper understanding of God. This past week has been another of those instances.

In church last Sunday, we studied 2 Timothy 1:8-12 where the Apostle Paul explains to Timothy that to live a godly life = personal sacrifice = suffering. Paul has obviously endured his fair share of suffering (2 Cor. 11:23 - 27). Yet, as a mentor & father-figure to Timothy, his parting instructions are not how to avoid suffering. Instead, he begs Timothy to "share with me in the sufferings for the good news..." (v. 8) And Paul goes on to explain why it's worth it (v. 9 - 12), but still exhorts Timothy to live a life of suffering.

And I've been considering what this means for me. I want to life an effective life. I don't want to waste my short time on this earth seeking comfort and stability (although these desires war within me). Yet to pursue a life that is challenging, that invokes all levels of suffering, and that therefore is of more value.

My 4 years of sacrifice in Puerto Viejo were, by far, the most difficult in my life. My personal safety was almost always at risk, personal comforts were unavailable, conflicts with staff were imminent & family was far, far away. And yet, I can say with all certainty that it was worth it. Within my suffering, I experienced far greater joys in relationship, nature, and knowing God than ever before in my life.

In contrast, over the past 8 months, I've been enjoying a much more comfortable season in life & so I'm thankful for it. It's a time of replenishing for my soul as well as my emotional & physical needs. But I don't want to remain here. I'm sure that this is just a season of life, it is not meant to be my life. This is just a rest-stop on the marathon of life & ministry. And this is very important for me to remember as I'm in a place of "new beginnings" as I seek a job & living conditions for the next 4+ years. I'd prefer to seek a job & lifestyle that is effective in evoking change on a Kingdom level than to seek a job that ensures my comfort.

I've had people ask me how I could endure such hardships as I did in Costa Rica...and how, on earth, I would choose to re-enter a life of hardship. And my reason is this, I know WHOM I have believed. "For this reason, I also suffer these things...for I know whom I have believed & am persuaded that He is able to guard me." (2 Tim. 1:12).

I know whom I have believed, & that is Jesus Christ, my faithful High Priest. Hebrews, chapter 2, talks about Jesus' suffering saying that, "It was fitting for Him (God)...to make the Captain of their suffering (meaning Jesus) perfect through suffering." (2:10). WHY? So that he could partake in all things we humans do, meaning suffering, in order to be a faithful High Priest (v. 17). "For in that He Himself has suffered, being tempted, He is able to aid those who are tempted." (v. 18).

For this very reason...because I have a High Priest who can sympathize with my sufferings, my weaknesses & my pain...I am able to choose a life that is effective through suffering.

How weird to be a rich American & have to choose a life of suffering instead of being born into it.

Friday, May 23, 2008

The Wrong Angle

Missionary Care is not necessarily a new field. It's been around, without the title & direct purpose, for years. Within the last 8 to 10 years (as I understand) it has become much more prevalent in mission organizations who are developing new programs to address the needs of their missionaries. Yet, somehow, I still feel like a trailblazer and this is why...
  • I am developing my career in this field, entry level, at a young age. It is the goal of my education and training. Yet, almost every missionary care provider I've met was either first a psychologist who saw the need or a veteran missionary asked to shift careers by their organization. In other words, they had a different career goal & then happened upon missionary care. Why does this make me a trailblazer? Because no experienced missionary care provider can adequately counsel me in making career choices at this stage of my life/career.
  • I am pursuing a Masters of Social Work instead of a Masters in Marriage & Family Therapy. So, far, every experienced missionary care provider I've met encourages me to study social work over counseling. And every single one of them are counselors. They see a deep need for this variety of professionalism, yet cannot describe exactly what it might look like...since there aren't many social workers breaking ground in this field.
Last weekend, at my grandma's 80th birthday, my wealthy & business savvy uncle challenged my way of thinking. I've been placing a lot of weight on my Masters level education as training for missionary care. In considering jobs to pursue while in graduate school, my criteria has been to find a job that pays well & fits my school schedule. And apparently, this is inadequate.

My uncle, quite persuasively, told me to get a job as a mail clerk in the company that one day, I'd like to run. Now, he admits that he doesn't understand the world of non-profit mission organizations, but he has a point. Hands-on training is what will make me good at what I do. Education enhances my ability & influence to make me great at what I do. Therefore, I should seek a job that offers the best training in this field regardless of my previous prerequisites.

Now, I am already doing missionary care with Alternative Missions and love it. But Alternative Missions isn't big enough to pay me a salary and God has not provided sufficient support to continue to live on & pay for graduate school over the next 4 years.

So now begins the journey to pray & network to see what job God provides.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Gaining More Insight

Today, I am sitting in Helene, Honduras & considering my career in missionary care. Participating in my 2nd MCT trip has really begun to clarify certain aspects ...

1. Missionary Care retreats like this one are necessary. Teaching combined with time for personal counseling sessions is a must. Therefore, I am planning to spend 2+ years to become a licensed therapist after completing graduate school. I want to be sure to have my tool belt complete for the work at hand.

2. It is important to have people of varying roles on the missionary care team (MCT). For example, it is important that the counselors are a 3rd party to Alternative Missions. In the future, there will be very few situations where it would appropriate for me to counsel an AM staffer. In partering with various organizations, however, I can play the 3rd party role.

At the same time, it has been important to have someone who understands the culture and nature of the organization and the ways that the team operates. Utilizing this person as a teacher/trainer is a great idea. Therefore, the combination of using an "insider" with someone of a 3rd party seems to be a good idea. My future with Alternative Missions will most likely continue as an "insider." My relationship with other organizations will be more 3rd party.

3. Finding ways to continue care/counseling after one week is imperetive, yet extremely challenging. For this reason, I would like to live in a specific area of the world in order to offer ongoing care to missionaries from varying organizations in that region. For example, I could live in Guatamala and offer care to missionaries from all over Mexico. I could also travel to various locations for specific training or to counsel for small periods of time.

I'm sure there are more thoughts, but I'm a bit tired and hot to type them yet.

Monday, April 21, 2008

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Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Emerging Thoughts

I've been here in Cofradia for almost 2 days now with our missionary care team & while you can hear all about our retreat on at http://tjgause.vineage.com, I'd like to comment on something different here. Walking the streets of Cofradia and talking with our staff has stirred up some emotions about my time in Costa Rica and my journey as a missionary.

Thought #1 - While I'm confident that I'm obeying God in attending grad school for the next 4+ years, I really feel made to do life in another place. It's a healthy tension that I feel in my soul....that I was made to live internationally, among a culture and a people that are poor according to the world's standards. In some ways, seeking a graduate level degree doesn't seem to fit this vision for life. However, at the same time, I am confident & excited at the prospects of what a Masters of Social Work will allow me to do as I live internationally among a different culture and people group. I know that life is long & that 4+ years (realistically 6 more years from now if I get licensed) is a drop in the bucket....and I have to remind myself at times & in places like this where my soul feels at rest.

Thought #2 - I can't believe how crazy I was at 22 years of age to move to a foreign country & help with the start up of a brand new missionary. While I did it with my eyes wide open to the challenges & difficulties, I knew I was called & God proved to be faithful. Seeing the base here in Cofradia & the result of years of work gives a lot of perspective. The majority of staff have been here for 15 years or more & have poured their lives out to the people of this town. They've given birth to their children & figured out how to have a long & healthy marriage while serving others. And it's clear that God has blessed the work of their hands (ps. 91:1).

Thought #3 - Seeing another one of Alternative Mission's locations also gives perspective to the various challenges that we all face. I joke with most people about how difficult life in Costa Rica could have been...I mean, I lived across the street from the Caribbean ocean. And yet, the constant challenges we faced, were legitmately difficult. Since having moved back to the States & met other career missionaries, we really had it much more difficult in a variety of ways than most. It makes me think that God is SO good for taking care of me & continuing to do so for our staff that are still there. It also makes me realize that with God behind me, I feel tough & like I could accomplish almost anything.

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Ken Lee

I can't figure out how to upload YouTube videos, but you should definitely check this one out. It's "Ken Lee" sung on Bulgarian Idol. Seriously, there are bunch of hillarious videos. Check them out here.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

A Long Way Gone


A Long Way Gone is by far one of the most mesmerizing books I've ever read. In this first-hand account of the life of a child soldier in Sierra Leon, Ishmael describes the path that led to become a child soldier as well as the battle to escape such a life. I was absolutely riveted the entire book.

To be honest, I had never truly thought much about the overwhelming social problems that plague the entire continent of Africa. I mean, I've known about the AIDs epidemic and have donated money, but I've never been moved in my soul. I am ashamed to say that until my Global Studies senior sem class at APU, I never really considered that the problem of child soldiers still existed. Shameful, I know.

Sometimes I am overwhelmed by the amount of need in the world and it causes me to continue about my days paralyzed by inactivity, as though my life was all that existed. At the same time, I believe in a God who's heart breaks for individuals and governments that are so deeply oppressed. And this same God reminds me that my life is not my own, but exists for a purpose. I want to be concerned with the same things that concern God. I want my heart to break over what his heart breaks for. And I want to be someone who is moved to action even as it involves personal sacrifice.

I hate sounding too much like a fresh college grad with the "I can change the world" mentality, but I truly believe that God can empower individuals to evoke change on various levels. Sometimes I wonder what a Masters in Social Work will allow me to do in the world. While I feel called to care for missionaries, is it at the expense of other projects/ministries? I don't think it is. I'm curious to see the way that life plays out and how God will determine to use me. And I want to remain aware and sensitive to people like Ishmael Beah and the life that he led.

"O Lord, you are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand." Isaiah 64:8

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

A Test of Faith & Taste of Humility

After 4 years of God's financial provision as a missionary, I'm ashamed to admit that I sometimes I still doubt His provision. Today I receive my bi-weekly financial report from Alternative Missions & saw new donations for this upcoming MCT trip to Mexico. Upon seeing these donations, I shouted out praise to God (and consequently sent my dog into a barking rage). :) And in that moment, I also repented as my excitement revealed the doubts in my heart.

Our economy is changing and it has affected many friends and loved ones. While some believe the drop in the economy is simply a hoax from the government, I know people that have lost jobs and houses. Whether or not it's a hoax or a truly difficult season, people are struggling financially and I am saddened for them. Consequently, these changes in the economy not only affect friends & churches, but also have effects in my financial support. This has made the fundraising for the upcoming MCT trips a matter of prayer & apparently worry. I didn't recognize that my heart felt anxious until the security of donations came in.

At that same moment, I felt so humbled by the financial donations people made. Living on faith-based support might be different than working as an executive manager, but it is the same God who supplies our needs or takes away our income. Knowing some people that are struggling financially makes me keenly aware of the sacrifices they make to be obedient in the money they give to God & He gives to me. Lord make me generous with that which you have given!

All of this caused me to reflect (and blog), remembering what I know to be true - That God is good. That God is faithful. That God has called me. And that God is in control. And I'm so thankful.

*And if you're curious after reading this, I only have $200 to raise for the Mexico trip (and another $1300 for Honduras).

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Jesus had dirty feet

This week I have been struck by Jesus’ humanity. Jesus got tired, thirsty and sorrowful. But more than that, Jesus had dirty feet. Hebrews 4:15-16 says that Jesus was tempted in ALL ways, but did not sin. That means that even in all of the annoyances that he dealt with, Jesus didn’t act out in annoyance or frustration.

When you think about it, I’m sure there were plenty of every day frustrations that Jesus dealt with. Having no car & walking everywhere he went, I’m sure Jesus experienced at least one cramped muscle. As a carpenter, I’m sure he hammered his thumb a few times. He probably got the runs, got sick of his arguing companions, and got tired of being sweaty and dirty all the time. I bet Jesus even had to deal with bugs.

And when I consider it all in light of this Easter week, I am even more amazed. For the biggest act of all eternity, the crucifixion of the Lamb on the Cross, Jesus laid aside his deity (Jesus was 100% God and 100% man). As he was led away to Jewish and then Roman trials, beat and whipped beyond recognition, made to walk with his cross and then nailed to it…Jesus was fully human.

And this makes Jesus safe to me. He really does understand me and is able to grant mercy and forgiveness with compassion because he understands what it means to be human.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Meetup.com (not hookup.com)


I'm proud to announce that I finally attended my first real meet-up last week and am hooked. I found the website MeetUp.com when I first returned home and signed myself up to hang out with groups of people with similar interests. Last week I went on my first hike and have been on 2 more since. *

Coming back after 4 year deficit & living down in San Clemente has made it difficult to reconnect with the few friends that still live in California. Plus, I work from home, which means that I have most of my daily conversations with my dog, who is not the best conversationalist. Being the extrovert that I am, I have a deep need to connect with people. Not only that, but after living in a small town for so long, it's difficult for me not to see the same people every day and it's easy to feel lonely. I miss "community."

So, in an effort to build more community in my life, I sat down at my computer...and searched the web. :)

If anyone would like to join me on a hike or cooking event, just email me. People that join these groups are not psycho (which I was a little afraid of), but just want to connect with other people. So, if you need a little more community in your life, do something about it. I joined a small group at my church & this website. This is a start to creating community in my life.

*Disclaimer: MeetUp.com is not a dating service. It is a website that allows you to network with people of similar interests in your area. I am part of a hiking, cooking, and book-reading group.

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Recreation Should Restore


For the past couple of weeks, I've been in dialogue with fellow missionaries about finding rest for the purpose of rejuvenating your soul. Living internationally, finding rest can be difficult, but is of utmost importance for spiritual vitality. You're in a new culture with a new set of rules for rest, not to mention the added (and unrealistic) pressure of "advancing the Kingdom of God one soul at a time." Sometimes it's difficult to break away (one friend mentioned having to leave the island altogether because there is no place to hide where someone won't find her and need her attention). Other times, and this was true of me in Puerto Viejo, I was able to "get away," but had no idea what to do once I had my alone time. Safety was always an issue as were cultural misperceptions and just the boring atmosphere of living hundreds of miles away from any movie theater or mall (which were the "special" things I did when visiting the capitol). But throughout my 3 1/2 years in PV, I learned to enjoy the slower pace of life, made a few friends, and was able to find ways to rest & rejuvenate my soul.

Now, living in the States, I've had to re-learn how to rejuvinate my soul. Throughout my time in PV, I learned that my soul feels rest in a few different ways - long walks or bike rides, enjoying nature either sitting on the beach or walking a jungle trail, playing with my dog, or hanging out with friends for dinner or at the Skate Park. And while I can no longer enjoy the jungle trails, I have found alternative ways to break away, enjoy nature, and connect with God.

But along with these new ways of finding rest, I have spent much more time in front of the television. Living in PV, any form of entertainment was gladly welcomed and it was nice to borrow a DVD, kick back on my wooden sofa and turn my brain off for a couple hours. Here in the States, life is too efficient. I accomplish more things in less amount of time and for possibly the first time in my life, I am not over committed. And to celebrate, I sit in front of the tv and have become addicted to DVR and reality tv shows. And I have found that this does not rejuvenate my soul.

In his article "Play Time," Alex Chediak addresses this issue of recreation. From his perspective, our North American understanding of work creeps into our recreation in the idea that I work hard in order to get my "me time". In striving for this alone time, we often find ourselves vegging in front of the computer or tv or PS2. And as a result, we don't actually sleep better and do not feel refreshed and ready for more work. His solution? Be intentional about your recreation.

I agree that it is important to choose activities that refresh your soul. In fact, the Bible is full of commands about rest (observing the Sabbath should be first to pop into your head). It's as if God knows what we need & has therefore given numerous examples and commands to keep us sane and healthy (which is no big surprise since He created us). One of my favorite examples of soul refreshing is in 2 Kings 3:15. When Elisha listened to music, the "hand of the Lord came upon him." He was inspired by music.

So, what refreshes or inspires you? Maybe it's time to consider the way you spend your time in recreation and be more purposeful about it.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Graduate Scholarships and the Easter Bunny

I have spent approximately 50 hours researching grant and scholarship opportunities to cover the cost of my Masters program. Unfortunately, I am in graduate school, Caucasian, my father is not a disabled military vet, and all of my "volunteer" community work was done internationally. It has gotten so bad that this morning I actually submitted two entries about the Easter Bunny just to earn $1,000. First, I played the role of financial adviser for Mr. Easter Bunny who wanted to put his 100 kids through college (en vitro gone bad?)....and apparently, telling him that it was useless to look for scholarship funding wasn't going to win me any awards. Then, I proceeded to write a "fuzzy and warm" poem about the Easter Bunny. And this scholarship was only offered for graduate students!!! What's the use of ability or need assessment when you can write fuzzy poems?!

Unfortunately, I don't qualify to apply for the Seventeen Cover-Girl Award Program; although, I would have given it some thought if I was planning for my college education when I was 12-years-old.

I'm beginning to wonder if internet research isn't the best way to pursue graduate school scholarships.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Transition Tunnel


This tunnel is a great description of what my life is like. It feels as though I’ve been in a long tunnel of “transition” since August of last year and it seems as though the tunnel exit is still a long way off. My transition started a couple of months before I left Puerto Viejo and doesn’t seem like it will end until I have started graduate school and am settled into a new apartment with a new job (in addition to this one with Alternative Missions). I know the end is in sight, but it still feels a long way off.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Seeking God to Ensure Victory

I received an encouraging email with this devotion from Charles Spurgeon, one of my favorite teachers.

"And David enquired of the Lord,"

2 Samuel 5:23

WHEN David made this inquiry he had just fought
the Philistines, and gained a signal [dominating] victory. The Philistines came up in great hosts [armies], but, by the help of God, David had easily put them to flight [beat them and ran them off]. Note, however, that when they came a second time, David did not go up [out] to fight them without inquiring of [asking –praying to] the Lord. Once he had been victorious, and he might have said, as many have in other cases, "I shall be victorious again; I may rest quite sure that if I have conquered once, I shall triumph yet again. Why should I wait to seek the Lord?" But not David. He [David] had gained one battle by the strength of the Lord; he would not venture on [try] another [one] until he had insured the same [victory]. He inquired, [of God] "Shall I go up against them?" He waited until God's sign was given. Learn from David to take no step without God. Christian, if you want to know the path of duty, take God for your compass; if you want to steer your ship through the dark billows, put the tiller [rudder] into the hand of the Almighty. Many a rock might be escaped, if we would let our Father take the helm [steering wheel]; many a shoal [coral reef] or quicksand we might well avoid, if we would let His sovereign [divine] will choose and command. The Puritan [spiritually astute forefathers] said, "As sure as ever a Christian carves for himself, he'll cut his own fingers." This is a great truth. Said another old divine [preacher], "He that goes before the cloud of God's provi­dence goes on a fool's errand," and so he does. We must see God's providence leading us, and if providence waits, wait until providence comes. He who goes before providence will be very glad to run back again. "I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt [you shall] go," is God's promise to His people. Let us, then, take all our perplexities [uncertainties] to Him, and say, "Lord, what will you have me to do?" Do not leave your chamber [bed room] this morning without inquiring of [praying with] the Lord.

I find myself reading this passage (or pretty much anything) in light of my upcoming "battle" of paying for graduate school. I'm encouraged by David's example of seeking the Lord for every decision. In some ways, I'm reassured of my decision to attend grad school because I know it is what God has for me to continue serving Him in missions. I've sought Him in this & know that He will give me victory. I think what trips me up is that God could go about granting victory a thousand different ways.

It's funny how much faith I have that God will enable me to succeed. I trust that God will enable me to pay for grad school, daily life, and missionary care. He's proven faithful in the past & it assures me that He will prove faithful for my future. But there are also times that I have great doubts about the impossibility of coming up with so much money over the next 4+ years of my life. We're talking about a $40,000 education, plus monthly living expenses, plus materials and trips for missionary care.

Right now I'm in the process of making some big decisions about applying for jobs that will enable me to do what God's called me to do. This week, it's particularly difficult to wrap my mind around. But as Spurgeon urges us on by David's example, I will continue to seek the Lord in this - my job placement & finances.


Monday, February 4, 2008

I Made It!

I got a call from Azusa Pacific University telling me that I’ve been accepted into the Masters of Social Work program. Not only that, but the call was made by the professor who reads through the applications before forwarding them onto the board for acceptance. She even made it a point to tell me how much she enjoyed reading my 10-page personal statement, saying that it was a pleasure to read about my personal & professional experiences (mostly in Cost Rica) and that my application essay was very well written. This was extremely encouraging news as I spent a lot of time on the essay and have had fears about starting grad school after such a 4-year break from undergraduate studies.


Acceptance into graduate school at APU means a few known factors and a bunch more unknowns.

What I know - That I will be attending classes and doing field work in the Azusa area for the next four years, which means that I will be moving up north. I also know that I’ll continue traveling and working with Alternative Missions, but will limit my hours per week (I’ll work between 7 – 10 hours a week for A.M.)

What I don’t know…yet – When or where I’ll be moving, what job I’ll be working to help pay for grad school and living expenses, how this job will work in conjunction with part-time field work during my 2nd & 4th years.

Why God likes risk takers…

I was only 22-years-old when I left my friends and family and moved to a foreign country, alone. And now, four years later, I feel the same amount of hesitancy mixed with surety about beginning graduate school and a new stage of life. Both transitions are marked by fear of the unknown as well as confidence in God. Yet, when I reflect on my experiences in Costa Rica I cannot help but admit the strong trust I have in God. He has been faithful to sustain me and that gives me confidence that He’ll be faithful to do it again.

Years ago, as an undergraduate at Azusa Pacific, I remember sitting in class, “The Life and Teachings of Jesus,” with Dr. Baloian. I’ll never forget the day we talked about the disciple, Peter. The gospels tell stories of Peter that make him sound like a wreck. He was constantly putting his foot in his mouth (Mt. 17:4-6) and suffered the consequences of his rash actions (ex – beginning to drown while attempting to walk on water toward Jesus, Mt. 14:30). And yet, Peter became the rock on which God chose to build His church (Mt. 16:18). Through all of his foot-in-mouth experiences, Peter experienced God in ways that no other disciple did. Plus, Peter walked on water.

On that particular day in class, I learned a lesson I’ll never forget – that God likes risk takers. For someone looking to plant a church or start a new business, Peter would be the last person considered for a high-profile job. There’s a good chance that a risk-taker like Peter could cause unrecoverable mistakes. And yet, that is exactly the sort of man that God chose. God likes risk takers.

This tells me something about God that I like and that I fear. God is actually pleased when I attempt something that could turn into a huge failure – like moving to Costa Rica to plant a new mission location or like attending graduate school to pursue missionary care. There is a lot of risk involved financially, emotionally and relationally. Yet Peter’s story leads me to believe that risking failure actually leads to greater chances of success and greater opportunity for God to show Himself strong (1 Cor. 1:25-29).

Lord, this is a crazy new transition. Show yourself mighty in the areas of my finances, emotions and relationships as step out in risk and in faith.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Bono

I totally ripped this off from Jeremy Dyck's blog & think it's possibly the most moving speech I've heard in a while. It's pretty long, but really good stuff.

In February of 2006, Bono, (lead singer of U2 and aids activist) was asked to speak at the National Prayer Breakfast in Washington DC. The following is the transcript of his speech.


If you’re wondering what I’m doing here, at a prayer breakfast, well, so am I. I’m certainly not here as a man of the cloth, unless that cloth is leather. It’s certainly not because I’m a rock star. Which leaves one possible explanation: I’m here because I’ve got a messianic complex.

Yes, it’s true. And for anyone who knows me, it’s hardly a revelation.

Well, I’m the first to admit that there’s something unnatural… something unseemly… about rock stars mounting the pulpit and preaching at presidents, and then disappearing to their villas in the South of France. Talk about a fish out of water. It was weird enough when Jesse Helms showed up at a U2 concert… but this is really weird, isn’t it?

You know, one of the things I love about this country is its separation of church and state. Although I have to say: in inviting me here, both church and state have been separated from something else completely: their mind. .

Mr. President, are you sure about this?

It’s very humbling and I will try to keep my homily brief. But be warned—I’m Irish.

I’d like to talk about the laws of man, here in this city where those laws are written. And I’d like to talk about higher laws. It would be great to assume that the one serves the other; that the laws of man serve these higher laws… but of course, they don’t always. And I presume that, in a sense, is why you’re here.

I presume the reason for this gathering is that all of us here—Muslims, Jews, Christians—all are searching our souls for how to better serve our family, our community, our nation, our God.

I know I am. Searching, I mean. And that, I suppose, is what led me here, too.

Yes, it’s odd, having a rock star here—but maybe it’s odder for me than for you. You see, I avoided religious people most of my life. Maybe it had something to do with having a father who was Protestant and a mother who was Catholic in a country where the line between the two was, quite literally, a battle line. Where the line between church and state was… well, a little blurry, and hard to see.

I remember how my mother would bring us to chapel on Sundays… and my father used to wait outside. One of the things that I picked up from my father and my mother was the sense that religion often gets in the way of God.

For me, at least, it got in the way. Seeing what religious people, in the name of God, did to my native land… and in this country, seeing God’s second-hand car salesmen on the cable TV channels, offering indulgences for cash… in fact, all over the world, seeing the self-righteousness roll down like a mighty stream from certain corners of the religious establishment…

I must confess, I changed the channel. I wanted my MTV.

Even though I was a believer.

Perhaps because I was a believer.

I was cynical… not about God, but about God’s politics. (There you are, Jim.)

Then, in 1997, a couple of eccentric, septuagenarian British Christians went and ruined my shtick—my reproachfulness. They did it by describing the Millennium, the year 2000, as a Jubilee year, as an opportunity to cancel the chronic debts of the world’s poorest people. They had the audacity to renew the Lord’s call—and were joined by Pope John Paul II, who, from an Irish half-Catholic’s point of view, may have had a more direct line to the Almighty.

‘Jubilee’—why ‘Jubilee’?

What was this year of Jubilee, this year of our Lords favor?

I’d always read the Scriptures, even the obscure stuff. There it was in Leviticus (25:35)…

‘If your brother becomes poor,’ the Scriptures say, ‘and cannot maintain himself… you shall maintain him… You shall not lend him your money at interest, not give him your food for profit.’

It is such an important idea, Jubilee, that Jesus begins his ministry with this. Jesus is a young man, he’s met with the rabbis, impressed everyone, people are talking. The elders say, he’s a clever guy, this Jesus, but he hasn’t done much… yet. He hasn’t spoken in public before…

When he does, is first words are from Isaiah: ‘The Spirit of the Lord is upon me,’ he says, ‘because He has anointed me to preach good news to the poor.’ And Jesus proclaims the year of the Lord’s favour, the year of Jubilee. (Luke 4:18)

What he was really talking about was an era of grace—and we’re still in it.

So fast-forward 2,000 years. That same thought, grace, was made incarnate—in a movement of all kinds of people. It wasn’t a bless-me club… it wasn’t a holy huddle. These religious guys were willing to get out in the streets, get their boots dirty, wave the placards, follow their convictions with actions… making it really hard for people like me to keep their distance. It was amazing. I almost started to like these church people.

But then my cynicism got another helping hand.

It was what Colin Powell, a five-star general, called the greatest W.M.D. of them all: a tiny little virus called A.I.D.S. And the religious community, in large part, missed it. The one’s that didn’t miss it could only see it as divine retribution for bad behaviour. Even on children… Even fastest growing group of HIV infections were married, faithful women.

Aha, there they go again! I thought to myself Judgmentalism is back!

But in truth, I was wrong again. The church was slow but the church got busy on this the leprosy of our age.

Love was on the move.

Mercy was on the move.

God was on the move.

Moving people of all kinds to work with others they had never met, never would have cared to meet… Conservative church groups hanging out with spokesmen for the gay community, all singing off the same hymn sheet on AIDS… Soccer moms and quarterbacks… hip-hop stars and country stars… This is what happens when God gets on the move: crazy stuff happens!

Popes were seen wearing sunglasses!

Jesse Helms was seen with a ghetto blaster!

Crazy stuff. Evidence of the spirit.

It was breathtaking. Literally. It stopped the world in its tracks.

When churches started demonstrating on debt, governments listened—and acted. When churches starting organising, petitioning, and even—that most unholy of acts today, God forbid, lobbying… on AIDS and global health, governments listened—and acted.

I’m here today in all humility to say: you changed minds; you changed policy; you changed the world.

Look, whatever thoughts you have about God, who He is or if He exists, most will agree that if there is a God, He has a special place for the poor. In fact, the poor are where God lives.

Check Judaism. Check Islam. Check pretty much anyone.

I mean, God may well be with us in our mansions on the hill… I hope so. He may well be with us as in all manner of controversial stuff… maybe, maybe not… But the one thing we can all agree, all faiths and ideologies, is that God is with the vulnerable and poor.

God is in the slums, in the cardboard boxes where the poor play house… God is in the silence of a mother who has infected her child with a virus that will end both their lives… God is in the cries heard under the rubble of war… God is in the debris of wasted opportunity and lives, and God is with us if we are with them. “If you remove the yolk from your midst, the pointing of the finger and speaking wickedness, and if you give yourself to the hungry and satisfy the desire of the afflicted, then your light will rise in darkness and your gloom with become like midday and the Lord will continually guide you and satisfy your desire in scorched places”

It’s not a coincidence that in the Scriptures, poverty is mentioned more than 2,100 times. It’s not an accident. That’s a lot of air time, 2,100 mentions. [You know, the only time Christ is judgmental is on the subject of the poor.] ‘As you have done it unto the least of these my brethren, you have done it unto me.’ (Matthew 25:40). As I say, good news to the poor.

Here’s some good news for the President. After 9-11 we were told America would have no time for the World’s poor. America would be taken up with its own problems of safety. And it’s true these are dangerous times, but America has not drawn the blinds and double-locked the doors.

In fact, you have double aid to Africa. You have tripled funding for global health. Mr. President, your emergency plan for AIDS relief and support for the Global Fund—you and Congress—have put 700,000 people onto life-saving anti-retroviral drugs and provided 8 million bed nets to protect children from malaria.

Outstanding human achievements. Counterintuitive. Historic. Be very, very proud.

But here’s the bad news. From charity to justice, the good news is yet to come. There’s is much more to do. There’s a gigantic chasm between the scale of the emergency and the scale of the response.

And finally, it’s not about charity after all, is it? It’s about justice.

Let me repeat that: It’s not about charity, it’s about justice.

And that’s too bad.

Because you’re good at charity. Americans, like the Irish, are good at it. We like to give, and we give a lot, even those who can’t afford it.

But justice is a higher standard. Africa makes a fool of our idea of justice; it makes a farce of our idea of equality. It mocks our pieties, it doubts our concern, it questions our commitment.

6,500 Africans are still dying every day of a preventable, treatable disease, for lack of drugs we can buy at any drugstore. This is not about charity, this is about Justice and Equality.

Because there’s no way we can look at what’s happening in Africa and, if we’re honest, conclude that deep down, we really accept that Africans are equal to us. Anywhere else in the world, we wouldn’t accept it. Look at what happened in South East Asia with the Tsunami. 150, 000 lives lost to that misnomer of all misnomers, “mother nature”. In Africa, 150,000 lives are lost every month. A tsunami every month. And it’s a completely avoidable catastrophe.

It’s annoying but justice and equality are mates. Aren’t they? Justice always wants to hang out with equality. And equality is a real pain.

You know, think of those Jewish sheep-herders going to meet the Pharaoh, mud on their shoes, and the Pharaoh says, “Equal?” A preposterous idea: rich and poor are equal? And they say, “Yeah, ‘equal,’ that’s what it says here in this book. We’re all made in the image of God.”

And eventually the Pharaoh says, “OK, I can accept that. I can accept the Jews—but not the blacks.”

“Not the women. Not the gays. Not the Irish. No way, man.”

So on we go with our journey of equality.

On we go in the pursuit of justice.

We hear that call in the ONE Campaign, a growing movement of more than two million Americans… left and right together… united in the belief that where you live should no longer determine whether you live.

We hear that call even more powerfully today, as we mourn the loss of Coretta Scott King—mother of a movement for equality, one that changed the world but is only just getting started. These issues are as alive as they ever were; they just change shape and cross the seas.

Preventing the poorest of the poor from selling their products while we sing the virtues of the free market… that’s a justice issue. Holding children to ransom for the debts of their grandparents… That’s a justice issue. Withholding life-saving medicines out of deference to the Office of Patents… that’s a justice issue.

And while the law is what we say it is, God is not silent on the subject.

That’s why I say there’s the law of the land… and then there is a higher standard. There’s the law of the land, and we can hire experts to write them so they benefit us, so the laws say it’s OK to protect our agriculture but it’s not OK for African farmers to do the same, to earn a living?

As the laws of man are written, that’s what they say.

God will not accept that.

Mine won’t, at least. Will yours?

[pause]

I close this morning on … very… thin… ice.

This is a dangerous idea I’ve put on the table: my God vs. your God, their God vs. our God… vs. no God. It is very easy, in these times, to see religion as a force for division rather than unity.

And this is a town—Washington—that knows something of division.

But the reason I am here, and the reason I keep coming back to Washington, is because this is a town that is proving it can come together on behalf of what the Scriptures call the least of these.

This is not a Republican idea. It is not a Democratic idea. It is not even, with all due respect, an American idea. Nor it is unique to any one faith.

Do to others as you would have them do to you.’ (Luke 6:30) Jesus says that.

‘Righteousness is this: that one should… give away wealth out of love for Him to the near of kin and the orphans and the needy and the wayfarer and the beggars and for the emancipation of the captives.’ The Koran says that. (2.177)

Thus sayeth the Lord: ‘Bring the homeless poor into the house, when you see the naked, cover him, then your light will break out like the dawn and your recovery will speedily spring fourth, then your Lord will be your rear guard.’ The jewish scripture says that. Isaiah 58 again.

That is a powerful incentive: ‘The Lord will watch your back.’ Sounds like a good deal to me, right now.

A number of years ago, I met a wise man who changed my life. In countless ways, large and small, I was always seeking the Lord’s blessing. I was saying, you know, I have a new song, look after it… I have a family, please look after them… I have this crazy idea…

And this wise man said: stop.

He said, stop asking God to bless what you’re doing.

Get involved in what God is doing—because it’s already blessed.

Well, God, as I said, is with the poor. That, I believe, is what God is doing.

And that is what He’s calling us to do.

I was amazed when I first got to this country and I learned how much some churchgoers tithe. Up to ten percent of the family budget. Well, how does that compare the federal budget, the budget for the entire American family? How much of that goes to the poorest people in the world? Less than one percent.

Mr. President, Congress, people of faith, people of America:

I want to suggest to you today that you see the flow of effective foreign assistance as tithing…. Which, to be truly meaningful, will mean an additional one percent of the federal budget tithed to the poor.

What is one percent?

One percent is not merely a number on a balance sheet.

One percent is the girl in Africa who gets to go to school, thanks to you. One percent is the AIDS patient who gets her medicine, thanks to you. One percent is the African entrepreneur who can start a small family business thanks to you. One percent is not redecorating presidential palaces or money flowing down a rat hole. This one percent is digging waterholes to provide clean water.

One percent is a new partnership with Africa, not paternalism towards Africa, where increased assistance flows toward improved governance and initiatives with proven track records and away from boondoggles and white elephants of every description.

America gives less than one percent now. Were asking for an extra one percent to change the world. to transform millions of lives—but not just that and I say this to the military men now – to transform the way that they see us.

One percent is national security, enlightened economic self interest, and a better safer world rolled into one. Sounds to me that in this town of deals and compromises, one percent is the best bargain around.

These goals—clean water for all; school for every child; medicine for the afflicted, an end to extreme and senseless poverty—these are not just any goals; they are the Millennium Development goals, which this country supports. And they are more than that. They are the Beatitudes for a Globalised World.

Now, I’m very lucky. I don’t have to sit on any budget committees. And I certainly don’t have to sit where you do, Mr. President. I don’t have to make the tough choices.

But I can tell you this:

To give one percent more is right. It’s smart. And it’s blessed.

There is a continent—Africa—being consumed by flames.

I truly believe that when the history books are written, our age will be remembered for three things: the war on terror, the digital revolution, and what we did—or did not to—to put the fire out in Africa.

History, like God, is watching what we do.

Thank you. Thank you, America, and God bless you all.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

I thought he had it all

I just pulled up msn.com to see the news headline announcing Heath Ledger's apparent suicide in New York this morning. And even though I didn't really know Heath, I feel a sickening sadness in my stomach mourning his death. I feel grief over his life & apparent loss of purpose or satisfaction.

Obviously, I don't know whether or not he knew Jesus or the thoughts his final months, weeks and moments contained. But I do know that most people considered him famous, hansom (ok, extremely hansom) and successful. For a guy who seemly had it all, I wonder what invoked such a a dark end.

You know, I was actually just trying to write some content for a personal website and was writing about purpose when I opened a new Mozilla window and saw the news. And it makes me wonder if Heath Ledger possibly lost sight of his purpose & that's why the tragic end.

Is it possible that losing sight of our purpose can lead us down such a path? Or never knowing our purpose to begin with? It's in our nature as humans to need a reason to live. This is one of the major factors that separates us from animals. We need purpose.

Numerous verse in the Bible explain why we were created & for what purpose Rev. 4:11; Col 1:16 to name a couple (you know, to worship & know God). But my favorite is Ephesians 1:11 (Msg):

"It's in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had his eye on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone."

And although God has a general purpose for mankind - to worship Him - He also has planned specific purposes for each one of us (Ps. 139). And that's so cool. I know that in my life, God has made me a specific way to serve him in Christian missions. And I have to admit that I really like knowing my unique purpose.

So, what's your purpose? What is unique to you?

I'd really love to hear.

Friday, January 18, 2008

Why I'm Thankful to Work for Alternative Missions

I just returned from a conference with representatives from dozens of different missions agencies from around the world. Throughout the week, I was asked numerous questions about Alternative Missions and found myself appreciating the organization more with each question. Here's why:

Alternative Missions, as the name suggests, is different. Our goal is to be relevant, creative and flexible based on culture/people/locations. If you visit any one of our 4 locations throughout Mexico & Central America, you'll participate in a wide variety of ministries including traditional church planting, medical/dental clinic, English school, skate park, house churches, The Movement, and more.

But there are more reasons why I'm thankful to work for Alternative Missions (and these are in contrast to what I heard from other missions agencies).....

  • We're "forward thinking" (meaning: edgy, out-of-the-box)
  • We use technology, especially to create community among our international staff
  • We operate in a partnership/team approach called heterarchy ('multiple rule', a balance of powers rather than a single rule of hierarchy)
  • I am free to pursue that which God has placed in my heart (I'm not told where to live, when to go, when to stay, what I should do) - while at the same time am accountable to the unified vision of AM.
  • We do not seek to "westernize" other cultures by proclaiming that God can only be known through our North American worldview. We preach Jesus, not culture.
  • We're small enough that we bypass much of the politics, "red tape," and hurdles that most larger organizations face.
What a cool organization. Thank you Lord for the opportunity to be a part.

If you want to know more about this whole idea of "heterarchy" check out this document: The 3 Ways of Getting Things Done, by Gerard Fairtlough.

What are you doing?

Seriously, I get asked this question on a regular basis. So, I figure that my first blog should describe what in the world I'm about these days.

Right now, I am working full-time for Alternative Missions. Our home office is a "virtual office" which means that I work from home (pretty cool). My main responsibilities include web administration and helping develop our Missionary Care.

Web Admin - check out this cool website: VineAge. It's a tool for world-wide church planting movements that Tom Hackett, the founder/director of AM has created. It's pretty awesome & I spend a lot of time developing our AMU website.

Missionary Care - Right now, we're working on determining certain characteristics of AM, of each of our ministry locations and their specific needs in order to further develop this aspect of AM. We have a Missionary Care Team which involves myself, AM administrators and a handful of mental health professionals. I've been attending conferences and reading books to educate myself on missionary care and have also applied to graduate school for a Masters in Social Work. I hope to travel to a few of our locations with the missionary care team before starting school this fall.

Once I start school, I'll be working full time (hopefully at the university for major discounts and benefits) as well as helping with AM's missionary care on the side. The neat thing about APU's MSW program is that I would have summers as well as spring and Christmas break free to visit our locations.

So that's the plan and that's what I'm doing.